Gosh that last entry was horrible
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I guess I forgot about this for a while, Carter was talking about how mine wasn't very good earlier but I didn't care at the time but now looking back at the last post I'll have to agree. Maybe I'm not supposed to write very long great essays detailling my views on life however writing like I'm black while drunk ain't very entertaining to myself or others.
Anyways, I've been at home for 5 weeks, and it feels like everyone at home is growing apart except for me, great isn't it. It makes no sense how people who've lived together for 25 years still don't communicate. It's also amazing how someone just doesn't want to grow up. Along with myself being a part-time member of the family which means I have less pull all compounds this problem. The problem is really simple to fix, however someone on each side loses big, and the lack of compromise and communication makes reaching any but the worst conclusion to this problem a distant reality. I'm being very vague so that the people who know me can understand however I don't wnat all of my business out (however no one cares right?)
On a more personnal level, I've been trying to relax and not worry about things right now, this is my summer, I'm supposed to be enjoying it and having fun, and not letting myself get bogged down. However I find it tough to draw the line between the responsibilties you maintain towards your family and the responsibility for yourself, aka family first or yourself first. It's like I'm forced to take away from the things I want or want to do to help them even if they don't really want to help themselves. Grrr this discussion is turning around in circles. I think I need some sleep and some time to think, tomorrow should provide that, and this weekend should provide some fun without bs or high cost, like clubbing, lol
-Steve
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What the hell am I doing here?
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Wow, I'm amazed, these dorms are hilarious. Honestly, everyhing imaginable goes on here, it's amazing. Athletes drinking the night before they compete, girls going wild and fighting over who they gonna fuck, girls getting their ass beat by people they "love", dude's fighting just cuz they got nothing better to fight over. Mad, I'm tired of this shit, 2 weeks until i leave this shit, and honestly, it'll be better at home, at least i won't get too much randomness. I just gotta do what I gotta do., Maybe I sound a bit black here, but fuck it, it's 70% black here, and you just gotta live life how it is. Man, know I hear about this girl, a friend of mine, giving head while drunk, and I'm like, you serious, wow, these girls are serious whoe's, and ti's the truth, oh well, their choice, tough luck, it's their life, not mine.
Enough rambling,
-Steve
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Samsung Experience in NYC
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Wow I'm actually impressed at the stuff at the Samsung Expo in the Time Warner building next to central park in NYC. I went into the Time Warner building just to see what it was like then bought a book (Terry Goodkind's Naked Empire, awesome series) at Borders then wandered up the stairs to the Samsung experience. It's crazy, it's like all the stuff from CeBIT and Korea/Japan is here, like the 5mp phone, the 3.1 megapixel phone with 3x optical zoom, hell there's even a cell phone with a 1.5gb HD that plays mp3 really well and stores documents. I'm not done the whole thing yet but it's awesome. Right now I'm on one of there Wireless Intel Centrino laptop, ain't bad but I like AMD :P. Alright I'm off to see the rest of it then go down to Central Park and read/study for a while.
Ciao
-Steven
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Not running
Of all the things I hate about not being able to run, is the night before I go to a track meet when I'm unable to run. Why? because that's when you think about what you could've been doing, what you're doing while not running, will I even run at the same level again, etc. You basically almost only think about running, and you feel like crap and get depressed. At least I'm making some progress forward so I don't feel like shooting myself anymore, lol. I can even jog for a little bit on my own, and bike for 30 mins, so I'm getting there. I just wish I could run again, I had to go through this last year, and again this year, I just hope I'm mentally able to keep doing this.
Anyways wish me luck, I'm off to watch the LIU trackbirds at the Metropolitan Championships
-Steve
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Random pictures
Thursday, April 14, 2005
I was looking through my pictures folder so i decided to post some up in order to spruce the site up, anways enjoy.
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Westminster Abbey, no it's not photoshopped 
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Tiesto Concert in Central Park
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me going out
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Me and the roommates before the 2004 LIU Athletics banquet
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Me and Masha at some bar
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First post
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Wow I've actually began this thing. This is the first step in what will hopefully become an ongoing thing. I actually had a journal a long time ago, back when I went out with Jen, man it seems like ages ago. I eventually gave up on it due to time but since Carter has his and I've always wanted to write a journal or something why not do this in my own way.
Now how should I go with this thing? Make it personal and keep it anonymous? Or just write random crap and put it under my name, anyways, I'll figure this out later, along with the rest of this thing.
Later
Steve
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